Infact, mum's probably cooked tons and is expecting me right now.
OK. Let's go then.
- Thanks a lot for everything. - You're welcome.
By the way, it's our opening night tomorrow. Maybe you'd like to come.
- It's not that boring, really! - It couldn't possibly be boring anyway.
- See you. - See you.
Hey, it's OK. Let it go.
Deniz?.
- What's the matter, honey?. - Nothing.
- Are you sure?. - Positive. I'm fine.
All right, honey.
They all laughed at me to begin with. "How can you get by selling creams??'
If I just stuck to that pension, I tell you.
- Pass the pickles, sis. - Here.
But you force all the neighbours to buy the stuff.
- People run now when they see you. - C'mon! I don't force them!
The woman has a face my bum and still says no! That's forcing her?.
Sis...
- How's Burak, Deniz?. - Fine, uncle.
They've opened a new store in Russia. He's gone there for that.
- Russia?. Isn't it dodgy over there?. - In what way?.
- "You want shower with me??' That story. - Ooph! No way! Burak's not into that.
- We're coming to the play, aren't we?. - Absolutely!
I'll give you the invites in a minute.
I tell you, I want a grandchild. I want a grandchild.
But it seems you have no wedding plans, what with you still acting.
C'mon! Why would they get married?. They're happy as they are.
If only you'd studied pharmacy.
Your uncle's handing over his place. You could've worked there.
Mum, I just don't believe it. Still?.
Mum's pharmacy fantasy never ends. Don't suppose it ever will either.
Ignore what she says. Everyone knows about your play.
Really?.
Remember you were in two episodes of that TV series last year?.
- Anyone who didn't watch got hell. - You're kidding!
- Mum?. - No one's had any beans.
- We'll have some now. - Nor have you had any of this.
Ah, you've ground to a halt on me!
- Orhan, you've filled yourself up. - C'mon, sis.
- Really, you have. - Sis!
You haven't even touched this.
If Omer were here, he'd have polished off the lot.
What's going on?.
She's been like this lately. Won't stop talking about Omer.
- Shall I go see if she's OK?. - Wait, wait.
Here, I've brought dessert.
- I'm done. It was delicious, sis. - Oh no! You don't have any plates.
- Here you are, your tea. - Thanks.
Ozgur. You know I find it hard going up and down stairs these days?.
Well, could you perhaps see to that studio tomorrow, huh?.
Sure. Some people called today in fact. They're coming over tomorrow morning.
- You won't leave right away, will you?. - No.
Smile!
Hey, thanks.
Thanks.
This camera is only worth one guitar actually.
- But I couldn't do that to you. Here. - Thanks!
Ozgur, what's this...?.
Where's that guitar come from?.
It's Caner's.
Ozgur, look. Jump about like this and you go bright red all over.
Why are you doing it, son?.
Ozgur?. Neriman!
What does the doctor say, Yilmaz?.
What can he say, Neriman?. Same as all the other doctors.
- He'll suffer all his life. - Shh! OK, OK.
Dad.
Where's my guitar?.
- Mum! - Come here.
- Look, I found the wedding dress. - Mum, where did that come from?.
Come here. Look.
Come here now.
Look, we'll take in the sides a bit.
And then it'll fit perfectly.
Nothing's definite yet.
Oh, c'mon! He's introduced his parents.
What do you think?.
Beautiful!
Will your dad come to the wedding too?.
Look, don't let him come. Whatever you do!
Mum, are you OK?. Huh?.
Burak's a good boy.
Good at his job. And he loves you.
I know, mum. Why are you saying this?.
I just am!
It isn't easy to find someone you can trust.
I was in love with your dad. And look what happened!
I, actually...
Good thing you reminded me. I haven't hung up the laundry yet.
- Read it! What's written here?. - It's just the girl imagining things!
- lmagining things?. She saw you! - Look, stop making a scene!
How could you do this to your own daughter?.
Mum?.
Mum, what are you doing?.
- Morning! - Morning! Come here for another kiss.
You were already born by now. A tiny, lopsided thing!
- Mum, I can't stay for breakfast. - How do you mean?.
I'm expected at rehearsals right away.
What, on an empty stomach?.
No, I'll get something there. So can I take the car?.
They keys are in the box.
You shouldn't go like this.
Don't worry, mum. I'll see you anyway at the theatre tonight, OK?.
- Ah, my love! - I guess I've grown up, mum.
You've grown up?. C'mon! You haven't grown up one bit.
You're every bit the child you were.
Still hiding things from me. Now cut the cake.
- What does that mean?. - It means you're in a state.
Why would I be in a state, mum?.
Those guys will be at the studio in 15 minutes.
- Really?. OK. - I mustn't be late. OK?.
- Off you go then. - Thanks.
- Dad! - Son!
Alone for all the world to see. It just isn't right
How could you go so heartlessly?. You can't just...
Anyone there?.
Yes?.
Hello there. I came about the rental. Is now a good time?.
- What do you plan to do businesswise?. - Open an internet cafe.
Ozgur! Come on, son. Let's go, son.
OK, dad.
- I'll just dust those, then I'll come. - All right.
- Ozgur! I'm locking the door. - OK.
- Hello. - Hello there.
Alone for all the world to see It just isn't right
How could you go so heartlessly?. You can't just leave like that
I thought I'd forget, darling But I've been longing for you
Tonight's our last night here. The road's now taking us to lstanbul.
But our hearts will never leave Ankara!
Have a good time, guys!
Hey, it looks great.
- Hello. - Hello, guys.
- There's live music, right?. - Just finished, I'm afraid.
- You're kidding! - But we have a party on.
The DJ's taking over right now.
- What do you think?. There's a DJ... - No, we want live music.
- We could check out Kibele. - Right, that's an idea.
Thanks.
- What am I going to do?. - What do you want to do?.
No idea. What would you do in my position?.
- You're asking the wrong person, Deniz. - Zeynep, please say something.
You're asking what I'd do if I were you, right?.
So you're me, I'm you...
...and Burak's my man. OK?.
Anyway, things are great with Burak.
Just a few problems with his parents, but nothing that can't be fixed.
Then one day Burak and I have a fight.
And I just happen to run into my childhood love that very day.
But unfortunately that snivelling seven-year-old...
...has turned into the most gorgeous, charismatic, talented, enigmatic guy.
And he's made me feel things no one's ever made me feel before.
Nor have I ever looked at anyone that way before.
Thanks. That's really helpful. Thanks.
Sorry, but what was I supposed to say?.
I don't know.
You could say, "Get a grip, Deniz," for example.
"Get a grip. Sure, Ozgur may be your childhood love."
"He may really turn you on."
"You may feel like you're about to have a heart attack whenever you see him."
"But you've been with Burak for ages.
He's never upset you, cheated on you."
Do you think I'm happy with Burak?.
Can I make a person happy if I'm not happy being with him?.
- He really loves you. - No, he doesn't!
What kind of love is that?.
Can you love something you don't feel or understand?.
Besides, if he loved you, why would he want you to give up...
...the things that make you who you are?. Huh?.
Look, don't cry.
Anyway, just live how you want to live. Huh?.
I'll fool him. That's all.
Tell us in one word something you lost which really mattered to you.
- You have three seconds. - My treasure box.
Welcome to the Ankara Arts Theatre, Deniz!
- Look, my mum's here. - Where?.
- Mum, my uncle, my aunt. - Ah, OK. I see them.
How come they're in row three?. Well, I guess they'll see better.
Ah! Zeynep, Zeynep!
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Deniz.
Thanks, everyone.
- Deniz Usman?. - Yes.
- We have roses. And a card. - I wonder who from?.
Here we go.
"To the most beautiful Deniz in the world, I love you."
Let me have that. Later I'll.. Now let me make a wish.
OK.
Bravo! Bravo!
- You won't be back late, will you?. - I will tonight, mum.
- Shall I take those?. - Yes, sure.
- See you. - Bye.
...in lstanbul.
- In lstanbul?. - Yes.
- So, what did you make of the play?. - I liked it.
OK, I'm not that into theatre, but I think you were fantastic.
Thanks.
We're planning to do something. Want to join us?.
- Sure. - I say let's get something to eat.
Eat me, Zeynep. Eat me!
- Shame on you! - We just stuffed ourselves with cake!
- Fine, OK. - Is there nowhere to party in Ankara?.
Sure there is. How about Manhattan, say?.
I have take this call. I'll be right with you.
- Hello?. - Darling?.
Sorry I called late. I was waiting for the play to end.
Happy birthday!
Thank you. And thanks for the roses, Burak.
- Did they arrive on time?. - Yes. The timing was perfect.
My secret notebook
Maybe I'll hide it in my heart As though opening up a hole
Maybe the rivers inside me will reach the sea one day
I'll wait for summer again
Thanks, thanks.
A short break, guys.
We'll be back in five minutes. See you then.
- I know the guy, you know?. - Seriously?.
- From ages ago. - Who?.
- Hey, how are you doing?. - Fantastic. You?.
- Here you are, but why no warning?. - Yeah, well. It was kind of sudden.
- Are you doing OK, you guys?. - Fine. Doing gigs and stuff.
Sweetie, why are you being cool with me?.
Is it still the row?.
I'm not being cool. What gives you that idea?.
- Well, what's up then?. - Look, it's my birthday today, Burak.
Zeynep and that lot are waiting. That's why I'm in a rush.
- OK, OK. - I'm hanging up. OK, bye.
Goodbye.
I have a friend here who I haven't seen for ages.
He's the reason I got into music.
As well as a great photographer, he's also a great musician.
So let me ask him on stage. Ozgur.
Tonight it's...
...the birthday of a very old and special friend.
A very special friend I've known for 25 years.
This is for her. Happy birthday, Deniz.
Thanks.
For no reason at all, or no reason we know of
I guess we lost our rag and said some things
When there were so many reasons and the time was just right
We did nothing and said nothing
We've told other people we love them at the same time
We've leant our heads on other shoulders feeling a sense of total trust
Could it not happen?. It could happen
You, here for all these years
Me, here for all these years
Our paths have never crossed except on this September night
- Zeynep. - Yes, honey?.
- We're going to take a walk. - OK.
- See you tomorrow. - OK.
- Thanks for everything, Ozgur. - No problem.
Congratulations. The play was wonderful.
- Shall we sit down?. - Sure.
The day I was born There was an accident.
My dad took mum to hospital for routine check.
They left, got in their car...
...and another car hit them from behind.
Mum was rushed to the delivery room because her water broke.
And they realized right then that I was tangled up in the cord.
Imagine, if that car hadn't hit them, mum would never have known.
She'd have gone home and I'd have died before I was born.
I remember that story every birthday.
I tell myself I might not have been here.
That if I'm here, I'm meant to be here. I should be something, do something.
- Ooph! I'm babbling, aren't l?. - No, no, no.
When's your birthday?.
- As the sun's up now, it was yesterday. - How do you mean?. The same day?.
- I don't believe it! Really?. - Yes, really.
- Happy birthday then! - Happy birthday to us both.
Why didn't you say it?.
I didn't want to steal the attention from you.
Thanks.
Ozgur, isn't this all too much of a coincidence?.
- Could it not happen?. - It could happen.
Where have you been all this time?.
I have to give you something.
What?.
A surprise.
Any clues?.
We have to go somewhere you haven't been for 25 years.
Time tumbles from my hands to the floor
From there to the wooden balcony
Clocks tick unsanctioned forever onwards to tomorrow
Pictures are pale without sun, Feelings change
Friends scatter to the winds, go their own separate ways
And you and I, wilfully lost warriors up against the windmills
We'll flow into the seas like rivers
Perhaps this is best
I vaguely remember, I think.
I...
...was here.
My grandfather was here.
And you dropped the stuffed leaves right here.
Close your eyes.
Don't open them yet.
Open.
We live no longer than butterflies We're meant to love, let's start right now
What else do we have to lose?.
I kept it here in case you turned up one day.
I have everything love needs
Thank you.
Before I can even breathe
I love you
Don't you... cry.
You've wound yourself around my heart like ivy
You've played with my blood, you've injected your poison
You've spun your web in my mind like a spider
The more I think of you, the more I want you
Before I can even breathe
Like alcohol running through my veins
I'm more and more intoxicated by you
It's like I've lost my soul
And I live only for you
Hello?.
Sweetie, sorry to call so early.
Burak, I'll call you in a bit, OK?.
OK. Call when it's good for you.
I have something to say. Something really important.
Ozgur.
There's something I have to finish.
If you have to make a decision...
...I'll understand whatever you choose to do.
- Are you OK?. - Yes, fine.
- Are you sure?. - Positive.
Go on. Go on, go.
Can we go to Cankaya?.
- Hello?. - Guess where I am, darling.
- Where are you, Burak?. - In Ankara.
You're in Ankara?.
Ozgur?.
What's up, son?.
Mum, we got an offer to play in lstanbul.
So?.
We're leaving tonight.
You mean for the New Year?. Is that it?.
No, mum. A regular job actually. The money's really good.
And I'll get a flat with the guys.
Ozgur, I haven't got in your way before and I don't want to start now.
Ozgur, look. But you aren't well, son. Huh?.
- Mum, I'm fine. - Neriman, don't waste your breath!
He's packed his bags, made his plans, his friends are waiting.
- We don't have any say! - Just calm down.
- Dad, look.. - Son, you're sick!
Dad, I've spent enough time in hospitals.
This life is mine. So is the risk. Now lay off me. Please just lay off.
Ah, you have a life! Well, we don't, damn it!
Just look at your mum. Is Ozgur OK?. Has he taken his pills?.
Have they called from school?. Has he passed out somewhere?.
- Yilmaz. - Hold on! You know what it's like...
...to think you might not come back every time you walk through that door?.
- Call that "life"?.! - So is it my fault, dad?.
- You think I wanted it like this?. - Son, your boundaries are clear!
- And you can't step beyond them. - What are those boundaries, dad?. Huh?.
Let's hear it!
A life between hospital and the photograph studio?.
I don't want.
I don't want a life like that, dad!
- What do you want then?. - Stop it!
To die in some bar?. You want that?.!
- For goodness sake! - Quiet, Neriman!
I've wanted a safe life for him since he was a child!
I've tried to get him a profession, some security!
I wanted him to be able to stand on his own feet if we weren't around.
Is that what you're rebelling against?.
See it how you like. I'm going dad.
I'm sorry, mum.
Ozgur?. Are you...
Walk through that door and you no longer exist for me!
I didn't want to come over and disturb everyone first thing.
- When shall we meet?. - I'll be ready in an hour.
- Let's meet then at Cafemiz. OK?. - OK, honey.
I'm serious, don't drink anything from an open bottle in bars and places.
OK, Inci. Don't worry.
Say you don't feel right there. Just come straight back.
Mum, I'm not going for good, you know.
You know of anyone from Ankara who's gone to lstanbul and come back?.
- Inci. We're running late, sis. - C'mon, or I'll miss the train, mum.
- It's no good like that. - It's fine. Perfect. OK then.
Uncle.
- Look after mum for me, OK?. - Don't you worry. C'mon! Don't be late!
- Call as soon as you arrive. - OK. But don't wait. Go on, go.
- Excuse me, is this seat free?. - Yes, sure.
- Oh, sorry. - Excuse me.
- Going to lstanbul?. - Yes. Istanbul.
Darling?.
Look what I found at the airport. You never told me about that.
You look fabulous. Take a look.
- We have to talk. - Sure we'll talk. In a while.
- Burak, don't do this! - Shh!
Deniz, will you marry me?.
I can't.
- What do you mean, you can't?. - I can't marry you.
- Why not?. - Because...
Deniz, what's up with you?. What's wrong?.
Look, if it's the acting thing, I've thought about that, Deniz.
Keep going. You're right about that. I'll be behind you all the way.
Deniz, what's going on?. What's up with you, huh?.
I'm not in love with you, Burak.
Don't be ridiculous, Deniz! What's that supposed to mean?.
I'm sorry.
When did you decide that?. What happened while I was away?.
Be straight with me, Deniz.
What do you mean all of a sudden, "I'm not in love with you"?.
- What's this about?. - Because...
- Because...?. - I've fallen in love with someone else.
Don't be ridiculous, Deniz. You're mad at me, that's all.
What do you mean you fell in love with someone else?.
What's happened the last three days?. Who is he?. What does he do?.
It doesn't matter who he is. Burak, even if this hadn't happened...
...you know we've never been perfect. There's always been something missing.
What, Deniz?.
- Everything's been perfect. - Burak, don't do this.
What have I done to you, Deniz?. What's missing?. Was I too all over you?.
Or didn't I care enough?. I've always stood by you.
Always... I stood by you through your worst times.
When did you last tremble inside the moment you touched me, Burak?. Huh?.
Has anywhere seemed beautiful to you just because I was there?.
Or have you felt really happy only...
...and only because, I was with you?.
Has a fleeting moment spent together ever meant everything to you?.
What did you guys do, Deniz?.
Did you sleep together?.
What kind of question is that?.
- Just asking. Did you sleep together?. - What does it matter?.
- Deniz, did you sleep together?. - You want to know?.
When?. While I was away?.
Or when I was here?. Huh?. When was the last time?. When...
Don't go.
- No way is this real. - Wrong, it's real.
- Look at what you're asking! - Give me one last chance, please!
Believe me. I'm leaving to give us a chance.
It may even be too late.
One last chance.
I would like to see Dr. Cem Yorgancioglu.
I'm afraid the doctor is really booked for the next two weeks.
I can't wait that long. Besides I'm an old patient of his.
Could you tell him Ozgur Turgut is here?.
If you'd like to wait, I'll try to reach him.
OK, thanks.
So do we get on the train or what?.
I just called his home. He'd left five minutes before. What do we do?.
- Should we get on or what?. - I say let's go. Let's get on.
The valve repair will provide relief for a time.
But it doesn't actually solve the problem, as you know.
You mean I'll never fully recover?.
The real problem is the weakening of the heart muscles.
So it's rather up to you how much relief it will provide.
You need to avoid things like partying, the stage, excessive stress.
- I see. Thanks. - Hope you feel better soon.
- Sorry about your ordeal. - Thank you.
- Ozgur. For heaven's sake. - Mum, it's been four weeks.
Considering I'm better now I can go.
- Oh goodness! Where?. - To lstanbul.
- But lstanbul. Ozgur, you... - Mum, don't worry.
I'm going to do as dad wants and be a photographer.
- But not with him. - Son, l...
Dad, you said if I walked through that door, I no longer existed for you.
You seem to have forgotten. But I remember.
See you.
Yes, Ozgur. Your results have come through.
Seems you haven't taken much care of yourself since the operation.
I've also checked your lstanbul file. Take a look if you like.
No, you. Go on.
Your condition's got much worse even in the space of a week.
How bad is it exactly?.
Ozgur, let me put it like this, knowing you have a thing about cars.
When the fuel light starts flashing...
...you can drive another 30-40 km, right?. That's exactly where you are.
We need to sort you out right away.
There's no sense in waiting for your turn.
You mean l...
I should be hospitalized right now?.
Can you give me a few hours?.
To be honest, Ozgur, we need to hospitalize you at once.
In fact, you may also need respiratory support for a while.
But the decision is yours.
Here's my card.
Call if there's an emergency.
And in the meantime be sure not to exert yourself.
OK, thanks.
The guy's an artist but his material sucks!
Hey, come on, Deniz! Stop moping. Burak will soon be over it. You'll see.
I thought at one point he'd never let go of my hand.
You did the right thing. And that's that.
Hello?.
Ms. Usman?.
Yes?.
Deniz Usman, right?.
Yes. Yes, that's me.
You auditioned for our project, if you remember. Well, we'd like to work with you.
Really?.
Yes. That's why I'm calling.
Oh my God! Thank you so much.
Seeing those photos made us decide. So can we see you?.
-OK, sure. I'll call you a bit later. - Thanks a lot. Speak to you later.
OK, goodbye.
They want me for that French film!
The guy decided when he saw the photos.
I don't believe it! I must tell Ozgur.
I've no idea what to do.
I want to tell her, but I can't even call.
- You must. You have to. - So what do I say?.
The whole thing's up in the air. I may not even come out alive.
Don't talk crap! What do you mean?.
Do you love the girl?.
Of course I do. Yes! I'm crazy about her.
OK, I'm hanging up.
Call Deniz right now. And I'll see you there.
I guess he's busy.
What are you doing, son?. Didn't you promise not to run?.
- Look, you'll get all sweaty. - Mum, please! I'm bored. Can't I go out?.
Ozgur.
Son, if you're listening...
...or if you listen one day...
...I have a few things to say to you.
When a person sees the end of their life looming...
...well...
...they think differently.
Forgive me, son.
I know you feel bad too.
The reason you haven't come to me...
...is because you're so like me.
That's why I can't be angry with you.
I can't be angry but...
...I miss you terribly, Ozgur.
Remember what I said to you?.
I said your boundaries were set, that you couldn't step beyond them.
But I was missing the point, son.
The point isn't those set boundaries.
The point is how you fill the space within those boundaries.
Whatever things, whichever people give meaning to your life...
...don't ever abandon them.
Never give up on them, son.
All living creatures have completed the bleak circle of life and died away.
Can I get in?.
My mother... Yes, my uncle fell ill on Thursday...
...and we called my mother.
Why did you tell me you kissed the earth I walked on?.
I ought to be killed.
Sorry.
I'm so weary.
If I could rest...
If I could rest a little...
I'm a seagull.
No, I'm not. I'm an actress. Yes.
So he's here, too
Well, fine. What can be done?.
Easy now. Easy.
I'll go round the other side.
I'm here. Easy there.
OK, let's go.
Let's go to the Medicana Hospital. Step on it driver.
I love him.
In fact, I love him more than before.
I love him with all my heart. Hopelessly.
- Congratulations. It was wonderful. - Thank you.
Hello, Ozgur?.
Hello?. Ozgur?.
Hello?.
Deniz?.
Burak?.
Ozgur's in bad shape. We're on our way to hospital.
Hospital?.
Deniz Usman's family or friends!
If we don't find a heart fast, we'll lose Ozgur.
- What relation are you to her?. - I'm her mother.
We have the results of the brain scan.
I'm afraid she didn't respond to the function tests performed.
In that event, we have to conclude that brain death has occurred.
ORGAN & TISSUE DONATION CONSENT FORM
Great news for you! We've found a compatible heart.
- Really?. - Yes.
I'm tired of losing myself as I look for you
A colleague will talk to you shortly about the necessary forms.
When I think I've found you I feel removed from myself
This will be a strange farewell
Because the truth is you're always inside me
No matter how far I go you're with me everywhere
I'm here my love.
There are no words to say
You're going to get better. I'm going
Goodbye
I guess I was born with the soul of a mare
It's in my blood to rear up and gallop
Goodbye
A little water, a little grass Home is everywhere
I carry the world on my back
Every language is mine
But there are no words to say
I'm going
Goodbye